Another depressive, rainy, cold Serbian day!I literally cannot believe my bad luck.All of those things I was longing for about this city are hard or almost unachievable with such bad weather.You know, hanging out in outdoor cafes and strolling along the walking street...
I was so unhappy today.I miss M. too much, plus the muddy,gray day doesn't exactly help. After I soaked the only fall pants I brought by accident, I decided to cancel other engagements and drown in my desperation. I was watching TV and napping.Hardly worth an almost 24 hour trip.
I'm not being fair, actually.I do enjoy spending more time with my family because of the weather. I just wish I'm in a better mood doing so, or at least with a little sunshine on the side.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Monday, September 10, 2007
Hooked
Another sunny day in Serbia.Not warm enough for me, but cozy.The cafes have opened, people have gone out,everything's back to life. But not for long, according to the forecast.Serbia in the fall is not the best place to be. Summer is!
I find myself much more creative in New York City.I wonder if I'm in "I'm on a vacation, I should be resting" mode, or just a writer's block.I usually know what to write about when I face the screen.
I met an old friend today. We had coffee, chatted, caught up...It was fun!I went shopping.Fun again! More shopping...
Spent a lot of time with my family.Talked to more friends, scheduled more coffees.I realized, in a course of this year, I became a coffee drinker!I've never been one before.I would occasionally had a Moka something, but more for the chocolate that for the coffee taste.But now, I need it to wake me up in the morning,I crave it in the afternoon...Am I hooked?I don't wanna be.I've always looked at people hooked on coffee, cigarettes, alcohol, whatever, as weak,and in a way, I pity them.Did I become one? No, of course not.I don't have to have coffee.I just want it.
I can live without it.It's not like with M. Now, there, there I'm really hooked...
I find myself much more creative in New York City.I wonder if I'm in "I'm on a vacation, I should be resting" mode, or just a writer's block.I usually know what to write about when I face the screen.
I met an old friend today. We had coffee, chatted, caught up...It was fun!I went shopping.Fun again! More shopping...
Spent a lot of time with my family.Talked to more friends, scheduled more coffees.I realized, in a course of this year, I became a coffee drinker!I've never been one before.I would occasionally had a Moka something, but more for the chocolate that for the coffee taste.But now, I need it to wake me up in the morning,I crave it in the afternoon...Am I hooked?I don't wanna be.I've always looked at people hooked on coffee, cigarettes, alcohol, whatever, as weak,and in a way, I pity them.Did I become one? No, of course not.I don't have to have coffee.I just want it.
I can live without it.It's not like with M. Now, there, there I'm really hooked...
Sunday, September 9, 2007
High school memory
It was a beautiful day in South-East Serbia. Sunny, warm, fresh...
All of a sudden, everything looked brighter.
I took a stroll with my mother, I saw some relatives, I met a high school professor on a street-one of the things I love about being back in my home town.Last I've seen her was during my book promotion in October 2002.
She hasn't aged a bit!Have you ever met one of those people who don't grow older?At least they don't look like they do.She's also advanced professionally-she's the head of the school now.A very impressive woman.
She invited me over to the school and I gladly accepted.You see, they know me there, they all remember me.That really feels great!
I love the fact that I'm hard to forget.
All of a sudden, everything looked brighter.
I took a stroll with my mother, I saw some relatives, I met a high school professor on a street-one of the things I love about being back in my home town.Last I've seen her was during my book promotion in October 2002.
She hasn't aged a bit!Have you ever met one of those people who don't grow older?At least they don't look like they do.She's also advanced professionally-she's the head of the school now.A very impressive woman.
She invited me over to the school and I gladly accepted.You see, they know me there, they all remember me.That really feels great!
I love the fact that I'm hard to forget.
Saturday, September 8, 2007
Greetings from Serbia!
Welcome back!S
Sorry I was away.I had a long,exhausting trip to Serbia,which enhanced the notorious jet-leg.
This trip, so far, has not been what I hoped for.
For one, my mom was sick. She's better now, thank God. Now my sister is sick.Nothing serious, hopefully, but it's gets the G, out of good mood.
And three, the weather, for the lack of a better word, sucks!
It is cold, and cloudy, rainy, really depressing. So far, two days, and no long strolls on the walking street or hanging out in outdoor cafes with friends-the gems of any good Serbian holiday, or visit home.
I did have a fun dinner with my extended family.It was great to see them all together, again!
Also, not much is open on Sunday here.People here take the day of rest seriously.I'll see an old friend tomorrow and that's probably it.
I have too much energy, even when I'm jet-legged.Hanging out at home almost all day long is not my thing. Makes me feel nervous and depressed.Or is it something else?
Hopefully, the weather should improve Monday.Let the vacationing begin!
Sorry I was away.I had a long,exhausting trip to Serbia,which enhanced the notorious jet-leg.
This trip, so far, has not been what I hoped for.
For one, my mom was sick. She's better now, thank God. Now my sister is sick.Nothing serious, hopefully, but it's gets the G, out of good mood.
And three, the weather, for the lack of a better word, sucks!
It is cold, and cloudy, rainy, really depressing. So far, two days, and no long strolls on the walking street or hanging out in outdoor cafes with friends-the gems of any good Serbian holiday, or visit home.
I did have a fun dinner with my extended family.It was great to see them all together, again!
Also, not much is open on Sunday here.People here take the day of rest seriously.I'll see an old friend tomorrow and that's probably it.
I have too much energy, even when I'm jet-legged.Hanging out at home almost all day long is not my thing. Makes me feel nervous and depressed.Or is it something else?
Hopefully, the weather should improve Monday.Let the vacationing begin!
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
Leaving New York
It's almost that time!I'm almost there, on my long desired vacation home!My sister is coming over tonight and we are flying off tomorrow!Very exciting!
But, at the same time, sad:( Why? M.can't come with me this time.And this will be the longest we've ever been apart in five years!So, the packing is a bit bitter-sweet.
My Mom thinks it's good for our relationship!But my Mom would say anything to get me to come home. She even encouraged me once to undergo an unnecessary, painful procedure just to get me home. Now, that's love--Serbian way;-)
She even wants us to have children now, so she can take care of them, and consequently spend more time with us.
As much as I know I will enjoy my time home, with my family and friends, I will at the same time, miss M.terribly. So, why do I do these things to myself?
I really need to go home.His job is the only reason he's not joining me.And when I come back,I will start a new career, which will probably not include any vacation time for a while. So, it's perfect timing for this trip.
Even though I believe I can have it all, often, I cannot manage to do so.
But, at the same time, sad:( Why? M.can't come with me this time.And this will be the longest we've ever been apart in five years!So, the packing is a bit bitter-sweet.
My Mom thinks it's good for our relationship!But my Mom would say anything to get me to come home. She even encouraged me once to undergo an unnecessary, painful procedure just to get me home. Now, that's love--Serbian way;-)
She even wants us to have children now, so she can take care of them, and consequently spend more time with us.
As much as I know I will enjoy my time home, with my family and friends, I will at the same time, miss M.terribly. So, why do I do these things to myself?
I really need to go home.His job is the only reason he's not joining me.And when I come back,I will start a new career, which will probably not include any vacation time for a while. So, it's perfect timing for this trip.
Even though I believe I can have it all, often, I cannot manage to do so.
Monday, September 3, 2007
Moma-take 2
We went to Moma again, yesterday.We figured, it's a holiday, most New Yorkers will be out of town, which leaves only tournons,plus $20 for a ticket...we should be fine.
When we got there, the line was non-existent outside, but inside, well, it's another story. So,M.decides to ask about the membership.It turns out to be reasonable, considering all the benefits-unlimited visits, no lines, guests get in cheap, discounts on goods...Have I mentioned no lines? And another practical thing about it-it's tax deductible. So we became the proud members of Moma!
I was a bit sceptical at first.You see, I like Impressionists, not Modernists.I like my art to have emotions captured in it, but with no nihilism, or depression-I don't need to go to the museum to see that! So, for example, I knew I loved Van Gogh and Monet.I've been to the Van Gogh museum in Amsterdam six years ago and I felt in love. I don't remember exactly where Monet got me, but it might have been Louvre.
So, after we walk through this garden with so-called "sculptures,"I have to admit, I was worried.Big pieces of rusted metal, placed side by side are not exactly art for me. So, we look at the guide to find paintings.Older paintings, XIX and early XX century.
We get up on the fifth floor and there it was-this huge Monet!A pond with waterlilies!Suddenly a big smile inhabits my face. I love his romanticism and his use of colors!He just makes me feel good!
Then I discovered more about myself!I knew I didn't like Picasso-he's too weird for my taste-but I didn't know I'm going to enjoy his contemporary-Matisse!They have the whole room filled with Matisse. He tells you a story, which I also like!
And then, Kandinsky!That was a surprise too!I loved his use of colors, and how the shapes blend into each other!
I'm not an art critic, nor a big connoisseur,as you can easily deduct, I'm sure, but I know what I like and I can recognize the artist-Toulouse-Lautrec, Goghen, Cezanne...
It's the knowledge I've acquired from museums all over the world, and the one I'm quite proud of.And now, I would like to read a book about art and artists.At least about the ones I like and dislike.I would like to understand what I'm looking at.
Even though we left Moma after the fifth floor, I 'm looking forward to returning to the museum, and learning more about the paintings I love.You know, through one of those audio guides.I'm not a big fan usually, because,I think, it distracts me from enjoying the art, but now,I would like to get inside their heads.
Joining the museum turned out to be a great decision for people like me-with low attention span!I can take years to explore it.Yay!
When we got there, the line was non-existent outside, but inside, well, it's another story. So,M.decides to ask about the membership.It turns out to be reasonable, considering all the benefits-unlimited visits, no lines, guests get in cheap, discounts on goods...Have I mentioned no lines? And another practical thing about it-it's tax deductible. So we became the proud members of Moma!
I was a bit sceptical at first.You see, I like Impressionists, not Modernists.I like my art to have emotions captured in it, but with no nihilism, or depression-I don't need to go to the museum to see that! So, for example, I knew I loved Van Gogh and Monet.I've been to the Van Gogh museum in Amsterdam six years ago and I felt in love. I don't remember exactly where Monet got me, but it might have been Louvre.
So, after we walk through this garden with so-called "sculptures,"I have to admit, I was worried.Big pieces of rusted metal, placed side by side are not exactly art for me. So, we look at the guide to find paintings.Older paintings, XIX and early XX century.
We get up on the fifth floor and there it was-this huge Monet!A pond with waterlilies!Suddenly a big smile inhabits my face. I love his romanticism and his use of colors!He just makes me feel good!
Then I discovered more about myself!I knew I didn't like Picasso-he's too weird for my taste-but I didn't know I'm going to enjoy his contemporary-Matisse!They have the whole room filled with Matisse. He tells you a story, which I also like!
And then, Kandinsky!That was a surprise too!I loved his use of colors, and how the shapes blend into each other!
I'm not an art critic, nor a big connoisseur,as you can easily deduct, I'm sure, but I know what I like and I can recognize the artist-Toulouse-Lautrec, Goghen, Cezanne...
It's the knowledge I've acquired from museums all over the world, and the one I'm quite proud of.And now, I would like to read a book about art and artists.At least about the ones I like and dislike.I would like to understand what I'm looking at.
Even though we left Moma after the fifth floor, I 'm looking forward to returning to the museum, and learning more about the paintings I love.You know, through one of those audio guides.I'm not a big fan usually, because,I think, it distracts me from enjoying the art, but now,I would like to get inside their heads.
Joining the museum turned out to be a great decision for people like me-with low attention span!I can take years to explore it.Yay!
Sunday, September 2, 2007
Craig's paranoia
I posted an add on Craig's list yesterday. We only used our car twice last month, and we pay for the monthly parking, plus, the insurance in N.Y.C. is much, much, much higher than in D.C.
So we posted an add.Reasonable price, good description, a picture...you know, a detailed add.With only a cell phone and an e-mail address, of course. Of course, I'm not dumb.And I don't trust people until I do.
So we got several e-mails. They all want to have it shipped someplace, they all have bad English, they all ask if they can send a check, or they want me to advertise on their Web site b/c, of course, of the scams?!
Isn't anyone honest wanting to buy a car in N.Y.C?!
So, despite all the money we're waisting on this car, I do not feel comfortable giving my address(all of them wanted that), and certainly not meeting someone in person without another party present.And a test drive?"We'll just tell them,the car drives perfectly, there's no need for a test drive!" I actually, really, said that last night. M.laughted...off;-)
I don't know if we want to sell the car after all. It's not worth that much.Maybe we're better off just taking it to a dealer somewhere here.
And as much as I love living in New York, it has proven to have a bad effect on my paranoia. O, yes, I suffer from untrust. That's the way I was brought up, I guess. People always want to trick you, in one way or another...until they don't.
Also, those 1000 episodes of "Law and Order" I 've seen, haven't exactly helped with that.
So we posted an add.Reasonable price, good description, a picture...you know, a detailed add.With only a cell phone and an e-mail address, of course. Of course, I'm not dumb.And I don't trust people until I do.
So we got several e-mails. They all want to have it shipped someplace, they all have bad English, they all ask if they can send a check, or they want me to advertise on their Web site b/c, of course, of the scams?!
Isn't anyone honest wanting to buy a car in N.Y.C?!
So, despite all the money we're waisting on this car, I do not feel comfortable giving my address(all of them wanted that), and certainly not meeting someone in person without another party present.And a test drive?"We'll just tell them,the car drives perfectly, there's no need for a test drive!" I actually, really, said that last night. M.laughted...off;-)
I don't know if we want to sell the car after all. It's not worth that much.Maybe we're better off just taking it to a dealer somewhere here.
And as much as I love living in New York, it has proven to have a bad effect on my paranoia. O, yes, I suffer from untrust. That's the way I was brought up, I guess. People always want to trick you, in one way or another...until they don't.
Also, those 1000 episodes of "Law and Order" I 've seen, haven't exactly helped with that.
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